Perhaps I Should Explain...

"4 stories in one day??" Not really.

A great booster to my own journey was the site Indiebloggers.org. As you can see by following the link, it's now no more than a parked page on Godaddy. I have no way of knowing what happened and I have no way of contacting them. Meantime, the four stories I had 'published' there lost their visibility and I wanted a way to ensure you could still read them - thus I posted them yesterday.

So here's the scoop - I have several persons who have kindly volunteered to serve as Editors and a test audience for the novel ['Flotilla' - in case you were wondering what the title was]. I'm continuing to pound on that and Thursday I fired it off into the void to a publishing house to see what might become of it. Meanwhile, I have a day job and a personal life AND I have to keep cranking on this thing, so that's what is happening when I'm not here.

I read something the other day that aptly describes the situation. It comes to us from Ralph Waldo Emerson courtesy ZenHabits.Net:

“Ah!” said a brave painter to me, thinking on these things, “if a man has failed, you will find he has dreamed instead of working. There is no way to success in our art, but to take off your coat, grind paint, and work like a digger on the railroad, all day and every day.”

I guess my own perception of the matter is rapidly giving way to the reality and this is not a bad thing. Working with an art is still work - there's aspects of it that still require you to get in there and just TYPE. This thing won't write itself and at the end of the day, someone has to do it. So it's work but it's work worth doing - does that make sense? When I'm doing my day job [Information Technology] - if I were a true Geek I'd be happy engineering solutions and solving problems. The reverse is true: Most of the time I'm so frustrated I want to scream; this is not what I want to be doing with my life and this is not how I want to be spending my time.

As I told my wife the other day [Sorry, girls...he's married] - "The only way out is through." I have to see this through - I'm stressed out and I'm tired but I would be in even more karmic debt if I skipped out on this opportunity. I have to get this done, just to see how the story ends...and no, I'm not talking about the novel when I say that.